i failed myself yet again. just because of my stupidity and uselessness.
i cant really do the right things anymore these days. i want to so badly fall in love, but im afraid i might just hurt the person i care for instead of loving. i dont want to make the same mistakes twice. im so deeply in love with her, but i cant show it. i just cant. everything bad will happen if i did. im such a failure.
i skipped 2 classes today. but i did have my attendance taken before leaving the class. i couldnt stand being in the same room. i need air to breathe and just ... let go. luckily i did not do anything stupid. i just need someone to hug. a nice big fat hug which is full of love and care.
i might just go drink again today. since tomorrow my class starts in the afternoon. sigh. oh, then i can meet joe at starbucks in bukit bintang! free coffee. ok then. im off. im to stressed to type anymore shit about my fucked up life. what caused all this depression? you'll know soon.
rick.
i cant really do the right things anymore these days. i want to so badly fall in love, but im afraid i might just hurt the person i care for instead of loving. i dont want to make the same mistakes twice. im so deeply in love with her, but i cant show it. i just cant. everything bad will happen if i did. im such a failure.
i skipped 2 classes today. but i did have my attendance taken before leaving the class. i couldnt stand being in the same room. i need air to breathe and just ... let go. luckily i did not do anything stupid. i just need someone to hug. a nice big fat hug which is full of love and care.
i might just go drink again today. since tomorrow my class starts in the afternoon. sigh. oh, then i can meet joe at starbucks in bukit bintang! free coffee. ok then. im off. im to stressed to type anymore shit about my fucked up life. what caused all this depression? you'll know soon.
rick.
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